Feeling Sentimental
I was talking to my mom on the phone tonight. She hasn't been feeling very good for over a week, but she always says she's fine. I can hear it in her voice...she's tired and weak. She isn't herself.
It hit me tonight stronger than any other time...I'm moving far away. I won't be close to my mom. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not the kind of person who needs to talk to my mother everyday. But when I heard my mom's weak and tired voice on the phone I missed her. I missed the idea of being within driving distance from her. I missed the comfort of knowing I can drive to the house that I was raised in and be there in less than two hours. I miss my mom. I miss my brothers who I always see when I'm there and I miss my sweet nephews who I treasure.
Tonight is the first night I have cried this strong. It feels like the process I'm supposed to go through before I move to Africa. I won't try to suppress what is going on inside. I will cling to the Lord through this process...he'll lead me through.
I talked to my Cousin Cathy tonight. She is one of my most favorite people. I'm going to miss that girl. I cried after I talked to her.
I am thankful that I have people in my life that I'm going to miss so much that it makes me cry.
It hit me tonight stronger than any other time...I'm moving far away. I won't be close to my mom. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not the kind of person who needs to talk to my mother everyday. But when I heard my mom's weak and tired voice on the phone I missed her. I missed the idea of being within driving distance from her. I missed the comfort of knowing I can drive to the house that I was raised in and be there in less than two hours. I miss my mom. I miss my brothers who I always see when I'm there and I miss my sweet nephews who I treasure.
Tonight is the first night I have cried this strong. It feels like the process I'm supposed to go through before I move to Africa. I won't try to suppress what is going on inside. I will cling to the Lord through this process...he'll lead me through.
I talked to my Cousin Cathy tonight. She is one of my most favorite people. I'm going to miss that girl. I cried after I talked to her.
I am thankful that I have people in my life that I'm going to miss so much that it makes me cry.
posted by Lydia | 7:33 PM
1 Comments:
Lydia, I totally understand the mom thing. It's the idea of not having her around "just in case" that is challenging as well as wanting to take care of her as she gets older. Nothing can replace that except for the peace of God. It is always painful. I do enjoy being able to call my mom during certain hours of the day, but she is missing out in her grandkids too. She won't even see Rebekah until she is 1 1/2 years old.
I wish I could give you some "great advice," but it is just painful at times. You may not want to hear that your reward is in heaven at times like that :) Yet, it's still true! :)
I have no idea what the weather is like where you are going; I imagine it is dry heat? If it is humid, you might want to check into dehumidifiers. We have four of them here, and they save our things from destruction! I am sure you have talked to Dana about things she wished she had had. I wish I knew then what I know now as far as what to bring. There are a lot of things I gave away or sold that I could really use now. But I would need a container to get them here. For example, a freezer would be so helpful, but they are so expensive here compared to America. I have to freeze (or refrig) everything: cereal, flour, chili powder, rice, etc. I find worms, rice bugs, and all kinds of other critters if I don't. It amazes me how they can even get in there.
We did bring our own matresses which I am thankful for! The mattresses here are just not the same. Anyway, you get only one container so make the best of it. Also, you will be surprised how much you can fit in one if you pack it correctly. Do you have someone helping you that knows how to do it?
Hang in there, Lydia. This is an adventure you won't regret :)
connie
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